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Now….That is A Yoga Pose!

 

I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes in November of 1976 at the age of 14.   My biggest desire in life has been and remains to find the root cause and correct it.  Seventeen years ago I was introduced to yoga.

My first yoga class was at a Bikram Yoga Studio in Boca Raton, Florida in November of 1999.  The room is heated to 110 degrees and there are 26 postures that are repeated each class.  I sweated so much I lost 4 lbs during the class.  The postures are designed to “squeeze” the toxins from every aspect of your being; physical, mental and emotional.  Class is over and the 90 degree heat in Boca feels like a cool breeze.  I would go to Bikram yoga classes almost every day for the next 6 years.  Sometimes I would do two classes; “A double.”  In 2002 I had the opportunity to take three months off from work.  I would wake up, go to the 7am class.  Come home, go for a 3 mile run around 1pm and then go to the 4pm class.  I literally, transformed myself.  Bikram began to get old.  The same routine, the heat, the stink….

I decided I wanted to deepen my practice so, in September of 2006, I went to a 200 hour yoga teacher training course at Kripalu in Massachusetts in the Berkshire Mountains.  While Bikram had systemized yoga into a 90 minute “torture chamber” that had tremendous benefit, it was very narrow in its exploration of the “map” of yoga.  Kripalu enlightened me to a much deeper understanding of what yoga is.  The yoga postures; poses; Asana’s are but one aspect of many in the map of yoga.  When I told one of the senior teachers at Kripalu that I had been living with type 1 diabetes since age 14, she said, “Now that is a yoga pose.”  Since 2006 I have continued to practice yoga and even guide some others in the inquiry of yoga.  Yoga is, ultimately, not something you do…….It is, instead a path of inquiry.  As such, it has accelerated my quest to understanding and correcting diabetes.

The Truth

The Truth is not relative. It is what it is and no matter what “take” you have, it will always be what it is and nothing else. “I’ve come to realize that the biggest problem in the world is that people’s perspectives of reality are compulsively filtered through the mesh of what they want and do not want to be true.” Travis Walton.

The inquiry into what is real and what is not is the highest work of a human being. There are many starting points but all lead to the same destination – THE TRUTH. What is needed right now are more people searching for, understanding and living The Truth. I suggest the following entry points of inquiry – Yoga, Vipassana Meditation, The Bible, The Bahgavad Gita, Kabbalah, Christian Science, Philanthropy, Integral Theory, (www.integrallife.com), Volunteering, Teaching Dharma, The Buddha, Christ. Choose one, choose two, choose all of them just choose. When I say choose I don’t mean become a devotee or believe or have faith in….I mean inquire, check out, investigate, discover. Awaken the seeking mind so that you can awaken the mind that seeks “The Way.” I am not a religious person. My personal inquiry has shown me that most all religion is, at best, corrupted. However, that does not mean there is no Truth to found in religion. You have to dig deep but it is there. And what you find are gold nuggets on the journey. Our job is not to “know” the truth. Not one human being has that ability. It is our job to seek the Truth. With that said, I will end with this quote from The Bible….The words of the Bible were never meant to be taken literally. It is code. Don’t throw the baby out with the bath water. “I will bless those who bless you, but I will curse the one who curses you, and all the families of the earth will bless one another by your name.”

Is Diabetes an Addiction??

I have sometimes used addiction as a metaphor for Type 1 diabetes. Think about it for a minute………

A type 1 diabetic must inject insulin daily. If still taking shots then a Type 1 diabetic might have to partake in a “fix” up to 8 or more times a day. If on the pump, we are constantly “hooked” up to our drug of choice.

But, Michael, we don’t crave insulin?? Try not taking it for a day or two and see if you begin to crave it.

But, Michael, it is good for us unlike being addicted to something like drugs or alcohol?? Yes, it may be good for us but we are addicted to it. We need it. Without it we will have symptoms of withdrawal.

What I am asking you to do by contemplating being an addict by being a type 1 diabetic, is to hold a mental perspective that you may not have thought about. When thinking of our disease as an addiction there are a few pathways that may open up. Explore these. Think about the people around you. Are they acting like co-dependents or enablers? Are you treating them like co-dependents or enablers?  Do you hide your disease? What is it that caused the addiction in the first place? Do I own any responsibility for the onset of my situation? Is the goal to overcome my addiction?  Has my life become unmanageable?

Check out the 12 steps of AA. The first step says…..”We admitted that we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable.” Does having diabetes imply we are powerless over something and that our lives have become unmanageable? What is the something that we are powerless over? For sure the immediate task is to manage our disease. If we don’t, our lives do become unmanageable.

I don’t bring this thought exercise out to be provocative. No, my intention is to offer a momentary shift in the way  we see our disease so we may obtain additional tools to combat it. I have had type 1 diabetes for 39 years now. I can tell you with 100% certainty that if you are able to increase your level of awareness you will increase your ability to respond to your disease on a moment to moment basis. Denial is one of the hurdles in the recovery of an addict. Some say the opposite of denial is acceptance and it is acceptance that will “set you free.”  Screw acceptance.  I don’t accept this disease.  However, I am willing to be aware.  Work on awareness and the quality of your disease control will increase and you will be on the healing path………..

Important Information

Human consciousness is evolving.  This is not my opinion.  Do the research.  It is an empirical fact.  Transpersonal psychologists and others have mapped it.  There are many ways to represent this map, however, essentially, humans have undergone 5 general stage shifts in their developmental journey forward.  Watch this 22 min video by Ken Wilber describing these stages and the critical importance of the next stage, the 6th stage, emerging now………

The Spiritual Path (Part 3); The Big Picture

If you step back and take a look at “it” and by “it” I mean everything, and you start breaking it down and what I mean by breaking it down is to see the parts and how they interact, you can’t but help feel a sense of awe.  Most of everything that is going on we can’t see, touch, hear, feel, taste or smell; we can’t sense it.  We aren’t  conscious of these things.  Are you aware of the neural firings in the brain or the release of peptides and the docking of proteins on individual cells?  How often do you think of earth as one planet among trillions of other planets in the universe?    What about Black Holes and superstring theory?  We don’t “sense” these things.

What is “The Big Picture?”  The Big Picture is a description, representation, perspective of everything.  Now, I am not aware of everything.  And neither are you.  However, there is a way to inquire into it. Religion has tried to corner the market on The Big Picture. Each religion has its own Creation “story” and destination and rules of the game.    Science has progressed rapidly in describing what it sees. Science can only describe.  By its nature it is unable to explain.

So, where do we start?  In studying mystical teachings and practices like yoga we discover that there are essentially two fundamental components that make up the whole.  They are emptiness and form. As most of you know by now I like to provide multiple perspectives. Other ways to understand these two components are:

The Creator and The Created;  Ground of Being and The Physical World; Yang and Yin; Male and Female;  Light and Dark;  The Light and The Vessel…….

The problem we have is that we seem to be unable to focus on both of these components at the same time.  Everything arises in duality in our universe.  You ever think about that?  Anything that arises must do so with its polar opposite or it can not exist.  We can’t have a sense of sweet without knowing bitter.  If something is right then something is wrong.  A governing principle in Chinese Medicine is “As above so below.”  This principle is so profound and very valuable in our search for the Big Picture.  It provides us with the starting point.

There are many paths of inquiry from here.