This Type 1 Diabetes thing is starting to piss me off. I was diagnosed 35 years ago and I am beginning to have a desire that I do not have to do this anymore. Ok, so it is not the first time I am feeling this way. I know a few people who tell me it is not that bad for them or being diagnosed has been a blessing in disguise. NOPE! This has never been the case in my world. I have wanted it to go away since day 1. It is scary, it is insidious, it hurts, it does not feel good, it is cumbersome and it sucks. I have had long periods of time when I resided 24/7 in this mindset. I mean the blood sugars were impossible for me to control. It was like riding a roller coaster. Sometimes “riding” on the food, sometimes “riding on the insulin or the latest hard physical endeavor. And sometimes I just flew right off the rails into hypoglycemia or ridiculously high blood sugar. Mouth was so dry it got stuck. It really hasn’t been since the last 7 years that I have been able to stabilize things a bit and bring the blood sugars into a relatively safe range.
I have heard that there are some people with Type 1 diabetes who have really tight control. Myth has it that they get A1C results below 6.0 and hardly ever go over 150 and maybe get low once in a blue moon. I don’t think I have personally met anyone who fits this bill but I believe it is possible. Knowing what I know from 35 years of surviving and in the last 7 years working on mastering it I can tell you I am not there yet and I am not sure getting there is the goal. I have been getting A1C results between 6.3 and 7.0 for six years now. I have a sense I am in the safe zone most of the time. I check my blood sugar level 10-15 times per day depending on what’s happening. I have a Dexcom (CGM) and have used it but it does not fit in my system. I think it is really good if you want to do prolonged testing of basal rates or if you are unaware of going low.
My life’s purpose is to heal the diabetes. I know that it is not about regenerating the islet cells. I know the immune system is in play. I know there is a deep emotional and spiritual component to this manifestation. I know we (human beings) are evolving very fast right now and there are going to be unique, magical and miraculous opportunities that will enlighten the path of healing and a cure. I have done some exploration into these paths and have experienced their effects. Paths like yoga, meditation, acupuncture, cranio sacral therapy, biofeedback, seasonal nutrition strategies, etc. All of these paths have their benefits and they impact everyone differently. I have explored some of the esoteric, mystical and metaphysical maps of life and our world. Some of these maps offer clues to how things work and consequently why things don’t work.
I can tell you this much right now. The current medical protocol that is set up to “treat” Type 1 Diabetes simply won’t get us to a cure. It has meant our survival. But survival with out controlled blood sugars is dangerous at best and fatal at worst. The first thing we must do is to ensure our survival so we must enter the game of the Doctors and Health Care Professionals. Learn as much as you can as fast as you can and then make them your consultant. The way to get in the safe zone with blood sugars is to take full responsibility for the system you set up and maintain. When you do this you will understand it more fully, you will become more skillful and you will learn faster. I am still learning. And know this…..blood sugar control is just one facet. We must address the emotional, mental, social, financial, and spiritual aspects of our condition. When you do you will slowly begin to make your way to the root cause. We are close.
My dream is to organize and lead a group of people who either have Type 1 diabetes or in some way affected by the dis-ease and participate in a 5-7 day retreat where I can share what I have discovered and where I am going relative to liberating myself and others from this condition. I have all my support people in place (yoga instructors, acupuncturist, cranio sacral therapist, nutritionist, massage therapist and I even have a CDE on board who has type 1 and wears a pump) ready to go. I envision 5-7 days of yoga, meditation, body work, metaphysical/spiritual map introduction, sharing and good food. I believe doing this would propel us to a cure. It is when we take full responsibility for our creation that we will become the conscious creators of our future. I have found a way to explore this possibility and my dream is to share it with other like minded people who feel the possibilities. Namaste. Michael