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Diabetes, Metaphysical/Spiritual

TABOO

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So, I’ve been trying to stay on this planet while injecting insulin as a human with T1D (Type One Diabetes) for a long time.  There are so many factors to consider in the “systems and procedures” involved in surviving and staying healthy enough to stave off complications.  And staying healthy does not even guarantee that The Sword of Damocles is, for whatever reason, is not released .  

I woke up in the middle of the night last night and had that familiar feeling of dryness and thirst from running high.  The sensation brought me back to when I was first diagnosed as a kid.  I think I drank a six pack of soda in 30 minutes and I was still thirsty.  I soon realized that whatever went wrong in the physical was a “single point of failure.”  In systems lingo that means the malfunction brings the whole system down.

I know y’all have thought about it.  What if I can’t get insulin into my body?  What will happen?  We are able to survive but it requires replacing a new manual component (injecting insulin) in place of the beta cells that were destroyed .  But, as you know, that is only part of the new manual system that must replace a perfectly running auto-pilot system that is standard in a normal body.  If we can’t figure it out then we suffer and put ourselves in dangerous ‘ranges’ of blood sugar levels which affect all other areas of existence.  It is not easy.

I know most people struggle.  I know some people have discovered how to do it, however, they still struggle.   I have compared the task of managing this new manual system required when beta cells fail and injectable insulin is required to flying a plane.  

In this post, I won’t go into “pilot training”. However, I will introduce what I believe to be, the single most important component to the system…….The Spiritual Aspect.  If interested in inquiring further see my latest post in my website entitle “Taboo.

So, as most of you know, I am a member of a social network site called Beyond Type 1. It is for those who have Type 1 Diabetes (T1D) as well as parents, friends, healthcare workers…..

The site recently did an upgrade. Prior to this upgrade one could “tag” a post one wished to share with a “topic.” Some of the topics were, ‘Newly Diagnosed, ‘Mental Health’ , ‘Parents’…etc. There was an interesting topic tag I used a few times which was ‘Taboo.’ It was kind of a warning like a movie being R-rated. Not subject matter all would resonate with.

Well, with the upgrade, the choice of topics is no longer there. So, I have decided to write a post here and link it in the Beyond Type 1 site….

The subject is Spirituality. More accurately it is Dharma. What is Dharma? Well Dharma are the laws of nature. It is Truth. It is The Way, The Path, The Tao. There is a quote……”The Tao that can be spoken of is not The Tao.” It is elusive. It is universal. It is, in the end, the essence of who you are.

I went to a month long intensive Yoga Teacher Training in 2006. At, the time, I had some money, was transitioning to the pump, had been going to Bikram yoga classes every day for over 4 years and I wanted to deepen my yoga practice. I wasn’t interested in becoming a yoga teacher per se.

Then, a year later, I went to a 10 day Vipassana Meditation Retreat. Wow, that was hard.

I study Integral Theory, The Transpersonal psychologists, Christianity, Yoga Theory, The Buddha, Kabbalah, Spiral Dynamics and other “Maps of The Territory.”

Consider the attached video an introduction to Dharma….

https://youtu.be/OEp9H92ej5c
Metaphysical/Spiritual, Weekly Torah Parashat

Purim

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This Monday evening, March 6, 2023 at sunset, 6:41pm in Indianapolis, 5:52pm in New York Purim begins. It ends the next day at sunset.

Kabbalah is not a belief system. It is not a religion. It is a technology for connecting to Source. In my opinion, it is not the only technology but it seems to be a very dynamic one.

Every week’s reading and every “holiday” is looked at as a “window of opportunity” to connect in a specific way. It is said that at the end of the world….which means when the final correction is completed then only one holiday will remain…..Purim.

Metaphysical/Spiritual

The Developmental Model: States and Stages

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In this website you can find a lot of content on Human Development, especially some of the early writing in the blog section and The Truth Seekers page.

In our yoga sessions we have been “practicing” how to shift into different states relative to body-mind. When we are in pose we are in a state of conscious attention to movement and breath. When we enter into a Shavashana we embody the witness or the observer, And when we let go of the witness we enter the void or the ground of being. Another way to describe it is that we experience the states of the physical, the subtle and the casual.

Many of the “Maps of The Territory” have been presented to demonstrate “Stage Development.” The Post Modern mindset has sought to minimize and even eradicate the concept of hierarchy. It is seen as discriminatory or mean spirited to think of higher, or lower, stages. But the reality is that hierarchy is part of the fabric of reality and we stand at the precipice of entering a new stage of integrating all previous stages.

Along with Piaget and Maslow this website has information on the Transpersonal Psychological work of Wilber and Susan Cook-Grueter, for example.

As Wilber says, “States are free but Stages are earned.”

What stage are you in?

As your “guide” in what we do in the yoga and meditation and map inquiry it is my ‘duty’ to inform you that humanity, as a whole, is about to undergo a major paradigm shift; an evolution into the next stage in our journey back home.

A stage shift does not require all of humanity to get there before it happens. In fact, only about 3% is needed. Have you heard of the 100th Monkey concept?

It has been my intention in the work we have done together to assist in confronting, exploring and understanding this potential paradigm shift.

Now, we are poised to master and transcend by clearing the path for others to follow.

Here is a video to support what I have been talking about……

Diabetes

Depression

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A Young Adult in her 20’s posted on one of the on-line support group sites I follow. She said………“Having a horrible bout of depression the past few weeks. Really at the breaking point.”

I responded to her post with this and a link to a blog I published last year about the grief process.

Ahhh.  Depression.  It is the hardest time when it sets in.  I had a bout of it in my 30’s when it set in deep and I almost couldn’t crawl out.  Having T1D just makes us more susceptible to it and harder to dig out.  However, because we live in a world of duality …. everything that arises does so with its polar opposite.  This is not my opinion….this is scientific fact!  And we also know this…..everything is impermanent…….anything that arises is bound to pass away.  

You did not ask for advice and I am not giving advice…..I am sharing with you my experience.  When depression sets in, everything narrows down to its worst possible outcome and, at the same time , things seem to solidify; movement slows and sometimes stops all together.

The way out is two fold.  First, move…….walk, run, clean the house, do anything.  Second, remind yourself that there is a “bigger picture.”  There is always a bigger picture.  

Laird is right! (referring to comment previous to this).  You are awesome.  You have taken on a journey with a difficult cross to bear.  But, perhaps, before you came down into this body that your soul is traveling in, you made the choice to experience this..  And your mission, if you choose to accept it, is to keep moving forward.  Sometimes, like the days we find ourselves in today, we must. employ…..”Certainty without Reason.”  This is a deep spiritual concept also called Faith in many circles.  Have Faith that this is temporary and that there is a bigger picture.  Choose the path of The Matrix Warrior and keep chipping away until you see the code and can become “The One.”

I wrote a blog about the grief process.  It may help.  I hope so.  (Search for my blog entitled “From Denial to Acceptance.”

From a spiritual perspective, all of us are on a journey back hOMe.  Sometimes, it is dark and sometimes it is not.  Either way, we will all return some-a-day.  Namaste, Michael.🙏

Denial to Acceptance
Denial to Acceptance
Diabetes

Anxiety

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I am a member of an on-line community for people dealing with diabetes. A mother of a child asked the community how we deal with anxiety. This was my response:

The anxiety can be, at times, overwhelming.  You asked for what to do with it so I am going to share with you what I have done, both good and bad, throughout this experience of injecting insulin for the past 45 years.

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1.  Do Nothing: Let it Fester….not a good tack for me.  The feeling of anxiety is letting me know to move some how.

2.  Engage in vigorous physical workouts.  It is my experience that this is one of THE BEST ways to dissolve the anxiety.  The problem here is that it takes a tremendous amount of commitment and discipline.  There was a six year period in my life when I really did it.  I lost a few pounds.  I was strong.  I felt great.  I ran 3 miles a day.  Lifted weights a few days a week and did Hot Yoga everyday.  

3.  Alcohol and Drugs.  These things work great in the short term but don’t resolve the problem in the end.  Kind of just hides the symptoms while the cause continues to grow.

4.  Psychological Therapy.  Nope.  This includes anti-depressants, as far as a long term solution.  I have an interesting perspective on psychology and therapy.  I went to graduate school and studied this subject.  I can talk more on this subject privately but no more here because it will trigger too many people, especially the psychologists and especially the behavioral psychologists.  With this said, I think support groups are good.

5.  Alternative Health Approaches.  Acupuncture is very effective for me.  Cranial Sacral Therapy has been profound.  Some Chinese Herbs work wonders.  Rescue Remedy taken orally reduces anxiety in the short term.

6.  Yoga.  I know people think this is a form of exercise and it is, partly but it is much more.  I am actually a certified yoga teacher and have been teaching small groups both in person and on-line for over 10 years.  Yoga has been a bedrock in my approach to survival and staying healthy.  

7.  Meditation.  This, for me, is the core work of all that I do.  Advanced yogis know that we do the yoga postures and flows so we can sit in meditation more comfortably and for longer periods of time.  The purpose of meditation is not to relieve stress or to calm the mind.  The purpose of meditation is to increase wisdom.  I attended a 10 Vipassana Meditation Workshop where I reduced my basal rate by 50% during the work…..When the retreat ended it went right back up.  I thought I was on the road to The Cure.

Anxiety can be described, at least partly, as a feeling that is a result of wanting things to be different than the way they are.  Diving deeper,,,, it is more accurately, wanting things to be different than the way we perceive them to be.  Hopelessness and Helplessness arise when anxiety is not addressed productively leading to depression and deep feelings of loss and grief.  

The solution is not to change the way things are.  The solution is to change our perspective, or at least, be willing to explore and inquire into the validity and usefulness of our current perspective.  This is the only Free Will we have; the way we see things.

The “turning point” for me was when I changed my perspective from poor me, why me, victim to 100% response-ability; A Matrix Warrior.   From a spiritual perspective this means accepting and knowing that I chose to be right here right  now.  And Now.  And Now….And Here.  And Now…

The Reality (Not my opinion but proved by the science of quantum physics) is that everything in our world is impermanent.  Everything that arises is bound to pass away.  As the Buddha said,” Everything is ablaze. ”  Meditation is about having a direct personal experience of The Nature of Impermanence (Annica in Sanskrit).  When we do this on a consistent basis we are able to heal the ruts of reactivity (Sankhara) that block THE LIGHT of Fulfillment.

This T1D is a bitch.  I have always known it is harder on the parent, the loving sibling than the diabetic……sometimes.  It takes courage to confront such a difficult task.  The grief is from loss.  When our soul journeyed from hOMe we all experienced this loss.  THE GOOD NEWS is we are on a journey back hOMe.