We have a location in upstate NY on the east bank of Cayuga Lake that is a perfect setting for a small group ( four to eight participants) retreat/intensive.




Beautiful accommodations with yoga/fitness room right on the lake.

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You design your own retreat.


There is nothing more effective than a few days to apply focused concentration.



If you are a group you can come for a few days of rest and relaxation with yoga, meditation, good food, golf, finger lakes wine tours, gorge hikes.


4 bedrooms, 5 bathrooms, wrap around deck, fitness/yoga room, huge deck, paddle boards, access to boat rides……..and a lot more.

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Set your own itinerary.

If you want us to collaborate with you we can talk about integrating one or all of the following:

  • My take on of yoga as a healing tool for my diabetes.
  • Introduction to Vipassana Meditation
  • Introduction to Kabbalah
  • Introduction to Spiral Dynamics (Map of human cognitive development)
  • Introduction to Integral Theory (Ken Wilber)
  • Shadow Work
  • Acupuncture
  • Cranio-Sacral Therapy
  • Massage
  • Chines Herbs
  • Supplements
  • Diet Counseling
  • Bio-Feedback
  • Laser Therapy
  • Light Therapy
  • Crystal Therapy
  • Chakra Balancing

As far as food….many options all tailored to your desires.


Let’s Do This.



The Yellow Brick Road; Brick (10); Call Me Trimtab

Exploring, experiencing, feeling, and–to the best of my ability–acting strictly and only on my individual intuition, I became impelled to write this book.

Ok…So it is not just how I feel now.

It is exploring and experiencing.

In a previous post I introduced three general areas of training:

  1.  Imparting KNOWLEDGE.
  2.  Developing SKILLS.
  3.  Introducing and Enhancing The Optimal Cognitive Context with which to confront, explore, understand, engage with, the job at hand. ATTITUDE.

The Eightfold Path is a Buddhist “map.”

Right Understanding or Right View is the 8th “fold.”

Notice it is on the top; “The Crown.”


“Panna” means wisdom.

Consciousness is the final effect,





Consciousness is the original cause.

It is Right Understanding/Right View that is real wisdom.

Thinking about Truth is not good enough.

Truth must be “realized.”

We must see things as they really are.

We must develop the awareness, skills and, most of all, the right attitude to begin to recognize appearances for what they are; not the whole truth.

Apparent Truth is a reality, but one that we must penetrate in order to experience the ultimate reality of ourselves and eliminate suffering.

William Hart…..The Art of Living – Vipassana Meditation.

Get This Book!

It’s like The Buddha’s Systems, Procedures and Training Manual.

A “key” for the maps.

This is important…………

I do not, nor am I qualified to, teach Vipassana Meditation.  In order to  “learn” Vipassana it is necessary that you attend the 10 Day “retreat.”   Hart’s book begins the inquiry into what it is.

In the Vipassana training we learn that there are three “kinds” of wisdom:

  1.   Received Wisdom (suta-maya panna):  “Heard wisdom” – wisdom  learned from others by reading books (or blogs) or listening to  sermons or lectures.  It is another person’s wisdom which one decides  to adopt as one’s own.  Whether it is accepted out of blind faith,  craving or fear, received wisdom is borrowed wisdom.
  2.   Intellectual Wisdom (cinta-maya panna):  After reading or hearing a  certain teaching, one considers it and examines whether it is really  rational, beneficial and practical.  If it is satisfying at the intellectual  level, one accepts it as true.  Still, this is not one’s own insight, but an  intellectualization of the wisdom one has heard.
  3.  Experiential Wisdom (bhavana-maya panna):  This is wisdom that  one lives, real wisdom that will bring a change in one’s life by changing  the very nature of mind.

25 years ago, one of the buzz phrases in the business world was “managing change.”

The present rate of change and speed evolution has accelerated so fast that change cannot be managed.  

We must achieve Experiential Wisdom of The Nature of Impermanence so that we can connect to the “reality” of the ever changing nature of the ephemeral “Way.”

Where do we go from here?

It sure “appears” as though the world is about to blow up.


I am here offering to share with you what I have found and to ‘play’ the role of guide, interpreter; co-pilot?


There is no “getting it.”  It is not something that can be “grasped.”

However, every moment is an opportunity to experience it.

“The observer is the observed.”       Krishnamurti.

This is Right Understanding.

This is Right View.

Deeper into Bucky’s book CRITICAL PATH is a fascinating essay entitled…..”Ever Rethinking The Lord’s Prayer.”

For those of you who have the book it starts on page 153.

I found this link that has it. 

Ever Rethinking the Lord’s Prayer: Buckminster Fuller Revises Scripture with Science

Towards the end of the essay Bucky writes;


“Total Accountability and Total Feedback constitute the minimum and only perpetual motion system.”  


“Universe is the one and only eternally regenerative system.”

How do you see “Universe?”

The Spiritual Realm (The 99%) is a realm of pure consciousness.

The Light of the Creator wants to share infinite fulfillment and pleasure with The Vessels of The Desire to Receive.

Connecting The Light (The ‘+’ pole) directly with The Vessel (The      ‘-‘ pole) does not work “down” here, in our Universe.


You may experience a short bright burst of Light (A.k.a…Instant Gratification) but it will pass away quickly (there is the impermanence thing) leaving you with a short circuit, a broken relationship or a hangover.

We need the filament; the resistor; the third column; the middle path.

We need to apply restriction.  

In The Garden of Eden Story (stick with me atheists, remember…don’t believe me…push back against believing me.  At the same time….push back against your beliefs and your disbeliefs), Adam and Eve could “eat” from any tree except from The Tree of Knowledge Good and Evil.

Some of the mystical maps introduced in The Yellow Brick Road presentation teach that scripture (FYI, there is a lot of scripture out there) is “code.”

Imagine, if you will, that The Garden of Eden “happened” prior to the creation of our Universe; Prior to The Big Bang.


The Garden of Eden is in The Spiritual Realm; The Realm that we cannot see; The 99%.


The two trees represent the two ways of connecting to reality. 

Remember the picture of the faces and the goblet?  And how hard it is to see both at the same time.?

It is the same when inquiring into these two trees as two ways of connecting to Reality.  

When connecting to The Tree of Knowledge Good and Evil there are actually infinite ways because Truth is relative to perspective and perspective is relative to liking and disliking which is relative to preferring and not preferring …..A matrix of infinite possibilities are intermingled.

Talk about chaos?

This system of connecting creates duality…good-bad, right-wrong, just-unjust, positive-negative.  Nothing created in this system can arise without its polar opposite;  It is a two column system.

The Tree of Life is an exact replica of The Tree of Knowledge Good and Evil except that it has a third column.  The third column is referred to as the middle column as it exists between the right and left column.   The third column is the resistor, the restriction; the filament to the light bulb.  This system is the one choice that will create “lasting Light.”


In the other system Light exists as much as in this one, however, it is not lasting Light.  

We are at a precipice in humanity’s evolutionary path.  

I know, based on my life experience, my work and my study that the most important work, right now, right here, is to inquire into The Tree of Life System of Connecting to Reality.   

Ken Wilber says we need 10% of humanity’s population to get to the Integral Stage of Development (Tier 2 Consciousness) in order to achieve the evolutionary leap necessary to continue on.  

Now is the time to leap to the next “level.”

Time to jump.


Im not claiming to be a poet or that this book is poetry, but I knew Cummings well enough to be confident that he would feel happy that I had written it.

Buckminster Fuller wanted the words, “Call Me Trim Tab” on his Tombstone.

What is a Trim Tab?

What did Bucky mean – “Call Me Trim Tab?”

A trim tab is a high impact catalyst.

The function of the trim tab is the same as that of restriction, the resistor, the third column, the middle column.  

It is the secret to achieving more with less.

In The Garden of Eden, prior to the eating from The Tree of Knowledge Good and Evil, Adam and Eve existed in 100% direct connection with The Light.  

Every desire was fulfilled immediately.  

It was a perfect circuit.

It was a perpetual motion system.

Feedback was immediate,  

Cause and Effect were simultaneously expressed.

Time and Space did not exist.  This is based on science, not opinion.

So, What happened?  Why did they eat from the forbidden tree? Why was it forbidden?

I could tell you what I think but that is so limiting.

I can show you where to inquire and I can guide you on where to look. This has worked with several people who I have shared this information with.  

Click on the links here to read the written reviews from a few of the people who have engaged in The Yellow Brick Road Inquiry.

When Dorothy and her friends meet The Wizard of Oz for the first time, they “come before Him” with desires;  The Scarecrow wants a Brain, The Tin Man wants a Heart, and The Lion wants Courage.  Dorothy just wants to go Home.

When it is revealed who is “behind the curtain,” everything changes.






Thank You Bucky!

The Yellow Brick Road; Brick (9); Essence

One of the many wonderful human beings that I’ve known who has affected other human beings in a markedly inspiring degree was e.e. cummings, the poet.

He wrote a piece called “A Poet’s Advice,” which I feel elucidates why “little I,” fifty-three years ago at age thirty-two, jettisoned all that I had ever been taught to believe and proceeded thereafter to reason and act only on the basis of direct personal experience.  Cummings’ poem also explains why, acting entirely on my own initiative, I sought to discover what, if anything, can be effectively accomplished by a penniless, unknown individual–operating only on behalf of all humanity–in attempting to produce sustainingly favorable physical  and metaphysical advancement of the integrity of all human life on our planet, which omnihuman advantaging task, attemptable by the individual, is inherently impossible of accomplishment by any nation, private enterprise, religion, or other multi-peopled, bias-fostering combination thereof.


A poet is someone who feels, and who expresses his feelings through words.This may sound easy.  It isn’t.

A lot of people think or believe or know they feel — but that’s thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling. 

     And poetry is feeling –not knowing or believing or thinking.

     Almost anybody can learn to think or believe or know, but not a single human being can be taught to feel.  Why?  Because whenever you think or you believe or you know, you’re a lot of other people :  but the moment you feel, you’re nobody-but-yourself.

To be nobody-but-yourself–in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else–means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.

As for expressing nobody-but-yourself in words, that means working just a little harder than anybody who isn’t a poet can possibly imagine.  Why?  Because nothing is quite as easy as using words like somebody else.  We all of us do exactly this nearly all the time–and whenever we do it, we are not poets.

     If, at the end of your first ten or fifteen years of fighting and working and feeling, you find you’ve written one line of one poem, you’ll be very lucky indeed.
And so my advice to all young people who wish to become poets is:  do something easy, like learning how to blow up the world–

unless you’re not only willing, but glad, to feel and work and fight till you die.

     Does this sound dismal?  It isn’t

     It’s the most wonderful life on earth.

     Or so I feel………………………………………………………………….e.e. cummings

Did you like the poem?  

I was released from the Hospital on Thanksgiving Day 1976.

I will never forget it.  

I had been there for a week while they tried to stabilize my blood sugar and teach me how to give myself an injection of insulin.

I had gone from 125 lbs to 99 lbs in a 5 days.

Without insulin the body effectively, begins to starve to death.

The fuel for the body (glucose) can’t get into the cells.

In a normal body the insulin is “smart.”  

The body and all of its cells has an intelligence weaved throughout it. It secretes just enough insulin so the blood glucose range stays in a narrow and “the normal range” of……80 mg/dl – 120 mg/dl.

Injectable insulin is not smart.  It just goes to work until it is gone.  In 1976 I took a 24 hour lasting insulin that acted on a kind of bell curve.  It peaked somewhere between 8-12 hours.  It was affected by how well I injected it, my other hormone activity, whether I was anxious, nervous, depressed or excited, how much physical activity I would engage in, the quality of the insulin….

There were no blood sugar monitors.  I could not prick my finger and find out where it was at.

Instead, I peed on a strip to see how much sugar I was “spilling.”

In the beginning I would see my doctor once a month and he would “teach” me about what they currently knew and how to try and handle it.

I was really going by how I felt.  

I knew when I was “low” because I felt shaky, confused, hungry (maybe). I knew when I was really “high” because I was tired, thirsty, irritable, hungry (maybe).  

I was flying blind.  It would be like this for the next 25 years.  Eventually they came out with shorter acting insulin and monitors and pumps but I still had to “fly the plane.”


Diabetes, especially Type 1, is a very misunderstood disease.

One of Bucky’s famous quotes is….”It is better to be not understood than to be misunderstood.”

A lot of people told me to forget about the diabetes and live my life.

In the hospital they told me to take my insulin everyday and eat a low carb diet and I could live a normal life.  


There is nothing normal about the life of someone living with T1D or those who care for them.

I think I know what cummings meant about feeling.  

However, I think Bucky stops short, at least in his Foreword, of going to the deeper root cause.  

I don’t think it ends with feeling.

I think most “feeling” exists in the physical world.

No matter how I felt I had to keep moving.


Thanksgiving dinner that year was at my Aunt Karen’s house.

I was released in the late afternoon/evening.  

I remember the traffic lights being so blurry.  My eyes had been affected by the high blood sugar levels.  

I was tired and weak and had all my pamphlets on my newly acquired dis-ease which included what I could eat and could not eat.

Dinner was about to be served when I arrived.  

It was beautiful – Mashed potatoes, sweet yams, gravy, turkey, stuffing, apple pie, pumpkin pie, mince meat pie, cherry pie.Let’s see…..I can have 4 oz of turkey with some green beens, no butter, 


The Adversary was clearly messing with me here.  

I had no interest in living this life. 

This was no where near normal.  I was far from “home.”  

I felt different, uncertain, anxious, lonely, abandoned and very frightened.

I started my healing quest.

I was riding a rollercoaster of physical, mental and emotional feelings everyday.  

Sure, being on a rollercoaster can be fun but it gets old after you have been on it for 24 hours straight.

In the next 25 years I would have close calls.  

I would experience hopelessness and learned helplessness.  

I was flying blind.  

I kept flying.  I had no choice.

There are  three rules to flying a plane.  

Rule’s two and three are exactly the same as #1; “Fly the Plane.”


This past November I “celebrated” my 40th anniversary of being diagnosed.  

What I have found is that feeling is a link to connect us to our essence.

Is it our essence?

There are basically four “states” we (human beings) can exist (be) in: Gross, Subtle, Casual and Non Dual.  


Scientists and researchers have identified 5 or 6 different structures of development (stages) that exist in the human population of today’s world.

These structures are, in fact, hierarchal “stages” of development.  

For all who took Psych 101, you know about Piaget, Maslow, Erickson.  

Piaget identified the stages of development as:

  1.  Sensory-Motor
  2. Pre-Conventional
  3. Conventional  
  4. Post Conventional

Piaget was describing child development.

Here is a more modern and expanded “map” of these structures/stages and states.









What if there is more than what appears?

What if there is a spiritual realm; the 99%?

What if there is no arriving in OZ…….That it really is “turtles all the way up and turtles all the way down?”

We were born in order to continually evolve, grow, transform.

Is this our essence?

The Yellow Brick Road Process is a journey into further development; an expanded perspective. 

States are free……Stages are earned.

I believe….It’s ok to believe if one is aware of what one is believing and has confronted the issue, explored it, incubated on it, become enlightened on it and does not “attach” oneself to the belief.

I believe that the understanding of states and stages is critical to the survival of humans on earth.

It has been determined that about 5-10% of the population occupies an archaic worldview structure, 20-25% a traditional worldview structure, 20-25% a modern/rational/science worldview structure, 30-35% a post modern/pluralistic worldview structure and 3-7% live in an Integral or Super Integral worldview structure.

Here is another visual of the stages/structures of development. Remember….The map is not the territory.







What is the Aha?  

What is important here?  

A lot of you who have gotten this far live in the last stage of development before Integral.    Not all of you…

If you are living in the post modern, multicultural, pluralistic stage, you believe in equality for all.  You resonate with the concepts of social justice, equal rights and tolerance for all.  You tend to be relativistic.  You do not really think morality exists in the absolute. Rather, you believe it “depends.”  

Truth and Reality are individually determined and relative to a person’s perspective.  You are probably not religious. If anything, you consider yourself spiritual…Maybe.  

You don’t like the concept of vertical development.  You wish to “flatten” the playing field.  You think this is necessary in order to deliver equal access to all.  

However, if you are living in the Traditional worldview structure you see things more black and white.   

You have probably adopted a structure of understanding the world based on a religion’s teaching. Morality is not relative, it is absolute.  You probably go to church, synagogue, mosque or wherever to worship your “map of reality.”  You are resisting the precession of evolution that is occurring.  You probably interpret it as prophecy playing out;  End Times, Revelation.  However, you are very “grounded” in your beliefs and faith.

If you are stuck in between these two world views you believe in rationality, science, facts.  

Your structure of understanding the world is based on what you can see, touch, hear, smell, taste and can make common sense of with your thinking mind.  You are either atheist or agnostic.  You perceive the traditionalists as children and the post modernist/pluralist as abandoning “settled” science.

The one common characteristic of all the stage structures in Tier 1 consciousness is that those who are in them believe they are right and that the other “perspectives” are at best, mistaken but really just wrong.

It is only when a person does the required work or is blessed with the merit to get to Tier 2 Consciousness that one sees that all the stages are partially right and necessary for our evolution.

It is only in Tier 2 where there is an opportunity to transcend and include all the previous structures.

Development does not end when one becomes an adult anymore.

Today, it only begins.

The Yellow Brick Road Advanced Training is a deeper inquiry into how to transcend and include.

Wilber suggests that we need 10% of the population to achieve Tier 2 consciousness and then we will hit the tipping point.

When this happens a Tsunami of transformation will occur catapulting all of us to a new level of evolution in the human experiment.  This is not based on opinion, it is based on science.

If enough of us don’t explore and awaken into Tier 2 then we are all doomed.

Are you one of the 10%?

We need a reason WHY.

Kabbalah “suggest” a reason WHY?

It’s called Bread of Shame.

Trigger Alert!!

I know that shame is a favorite word, label, emotion, feeling state, stage, line of inquiry of the opponent.  

I know!  However, like doubt, it is also a direct doorway to enlightenment.

Do you know the word repent, at its root, means to make new?

Are we negotiating?



The Yellow Brick Road; Brick (8); “The No Move Move”

We all see things differently.  Seeing is sensing.  Hearing is sensing. Touching is sensing.  Smelling is sensing.  What each of us happens to sense is different.  And our different senses are differently effective under ever-differing circumstances.  Our individual brains coordinatingly integrate all the ever-different sensings of our different faculties.  The integrated product of our multifold individual sensings produces awareness.  Only through our sensings are we aware of the complementary “otherness.”

“Know Thyself.” all wise persons have said.

We are each convinced of our own individuality, uniqueness and importance.


But do we really Know our selves; our essence.



The Buddha determined that a human being is a composite of five processes, four mental and one physical.

The physical aspect is the most obvious.  We can tell we have a “body” and can, if we are lucky, make it move the way we want to.

However, how much do we know of the functions of the internal organs?

Their functionality is beyond our control.  

At an even subtler level, we know nothing, experientially, of all the biochemical and neurological reactions occurring all the time and in each cell of the body.

Through our understanding of quantum physics we know that the seemingly solid body is really composed of subatomic particles and empty space.  

Furthermore, these particles are arising and passing away at great rapidity.  

The physical process is really more of a flow of vibrations rather than a solid, stable entity.

The Four Mental Processes:

  1.  Consciousness:  This is the receiving part of the mind.  Consciousness simply registers the occurrence of any phenomenon.  It receives data. It makes contact without assigning labels or making value judgements.
  2. Perception:  The act of re-cognition.  It identifies whatever has been received by the consciousness.  It distinguishes. labels, and categorizes the incoming raw data and makes evaluations, positive or negative.
  3. Sensation:  A signal, in the form of sensation, arises as soon as any input is received.  As long as the input is not evaluated, the sensation remains neutral.  But, once a value is attached to the incoming data, the sensation becomes pleasant or unpleasant.   

If the sensation is pleasant,

a wish forms to prolong and intensify the experience.  

If it is unpleasant, the wish is to stop it…..push it away.

A wish is a desire, a want, a request.  

When one wishes then one is drawing, asking for the Light of Fulfillment (Sharing/Bestowing) to enter into The Vessel of Desire (Receiving/Accepting).

Remember …… The cow wants to share more than the calf wants to feed.

4.  Reaction:  The fourth and final mental process is the wish.  The wish is the seed level (the catalyst) of the “reaction” of liking and disliking.  These fleeting reactions of liking and disliking are arising every moment.  When the sensation is pleasant one wants more of it.  This can lead to craving and addiction.  When the sensation is unpleasant then it leads to aversion and isolation, depression, anxiety, addiction, desolation and disillusion.  

Here is another way to “view” it.

Awareness of the “otherness” is information.  The complex of successively experienced informations produces interweaving episodes–and the complex special-case-episode-interweavings produces the scenario that our brains’s memory banks identify as our individual being’s “life.”

It all starts with consciousness.

The working assumption in The Yellow Brick Road “map” is that …The Cause contains within it the Effect and The Effect contains within it The Cause.


Let’s assume……

It is ok to assume if you are doing it consciously.  

That is what science does, or, at least, it should admit it does.

Let’s assume Consciousness is The Final Effect of Creation.  

It sure looks like it.

That means Consciousness isThe Cause; The Seed.

The Buddha determined that Ignorance of the nature of impermanence is the “root”; the seed of suffering, chaos, dis-ease, unhappiness, lack of fulfillment….

Two primary “branches” emanate from this primary root of ignorance;

  1.  The reaction of liking….leading to craving….leading to…
  2. The reaction of disliking….leading to aversion….leading to…

What’s the Answer?  

Am I not suppose to like or dislike?

What kind of a life is that?

Vipassana Meditation Training teaches that the answer is in finding The Middle Path.

First, we become aware of our reactions by noticing sensations (physical, mental, emotional).

Second, we apply a conscious neutral reaction to the sensation; non-reaction.

At first, it is painful

The reactions have become automatic and beyond conscious awareness.The reactions have become so persistent that they have created a kind of “rut of reactivity.”  

S.N. Goenka compares the Vipassana method to undergoing surgery.

In Sanskrit this rut of reactivity is called Sankhara.

Sankhara is conditioned phenomena;  formation.

Reaction, in and of itself, is not bad.  

It is a required component for life.

There is good reaction.  Great athletes have great reactions.

Many who study Buddhism and Eastern Aestheticism come away with a conclusion that all reaction is bad.

I don’t think so.  

Unconscious, repeated, addictive, non intentional conditioned reaction is bad.


Awareness drives  growth.


Equanimity supports it.


The way only-our-own, individual integrity of being responds spontaneously only to our own exclusive sensing of any given otherness episode is what I mean when I use the word feeling.  How do I feel about life?  How do I feel about it now?. . . and again now? Our feelings often change.  What do I feel that I need to do about what I am feeling?

I played soccer and hockey from when I was five until I was twenty-five.  

After that I played golf and poker.  Well, I don’t play that much golf anymore since I realized it is a freakin waste of time and space.  And I suck at poker…so….

Loved playing hockey.


Especially “back in the day.”


Soccer was ok too.  


I just hated running long distances.

There is a “move” in both soccer and hockey that can be incredibly successful, powerful and effective.

And it looks good too!

It is called “The No Move Move.”

Basically, it goes like this…..

You are being defended closely by an opponent and the ball or puck is coming towards you with pace.  You have the vision to see that you have a team mate who is open behind you.  As the puck or the ball approaches – you pretend like you are going to play it, however, you simply let it pass by you to your open team mate.

The No Move Move is a restriction.  

It is having the awareness that the best move is to not  make a move.

The No Move Move can be extended into how we react in relationships, business, family and, perhaps most importantly, with our “selves.”

I think that the Paradox is that in order to move faster along the circle one must know when, how, where, why to be still, not talk, not move, listen, hear, sense without liking or not liking, observe;  Become The Witness.

The accumulated reactions that have formed into beliefs, disbeliefs, opinions, truths, habits, addictions; all parts of your “identity,” must be seen for what they really are; Reaction Formations.

The Healing Path;  The Path of Recovery is a step-by-step process of:

  1.  Confronting the reality of the situation openly and honestly.
  2.   Exploring different paths of inquiry, thought, behavior, attitude,          perspective.  
  3.   Do the hard work of study, evaluation and growth. 
  4.   Achieve Mastery of a new way of being; Transform.
  5.    Rejoice and Share with others.

Sound familiar to any of you addicts out there?  

In my opinion, the reason that the relapse rate is so high for alcoholics and drug addicts is because the affliction of addiction is, at the seed level, a Spiritual Recovery Process.

Unless one connects to the spiritual seed level the addiction will be like mushrooms in mud.  Going to be popping up everywhere.

Or like that Whack-a-Mole game at the Fair.

Perhaps the Yellow Brick Road can contribute to the evolving approach we are taking towards addiction.

Cause it ain’t working.

The Vipassana Training is 10 Days.  

I recommend it for everyone. Lmao.

The Buddha said…….

“All Sankharas are impermanent.

 When you perceive this with true insight, then you will become detached from suffering;

This is the path of purification.”

The Buddha’s was going to sit under the tree until he found the cause of suffering.  

Are you willing to do the same?

Many of the mystical maps and metaphysical maps of the territory suggest that HUMAN LIFE is a process of healing, recovery, a journey back home.

“Man” has fallen, been abandoned, lost his way, sinned and needs to find his way back to the garden.

I can tell you from my personal experience of going through the Vipassana 10 day training that we are all living in a kind of prison or matrix of physical, mental and emotional reactivity.

In college, I use to have to go through 2 weeks of triple soccer practices in August for pre-season training.  

The 10 days of no talking, no phone, no reading, no writing, no nothing except eating (not much), sitting, sleeping and going to the bathroom was much harder than that. 

Before going I was in the midst of working out a lot; yoga everyday, long walks or short runs, etc.

There was no doing yoga or working out during the 10 days.  

My insulin requirement went down by 50% while in the training.

The day it ended and I could talk again it went back up.

I write about my experience in my blog if you are interested.

Vipassana experience blog.

This “Brick” is dedicated to my brother.  

He is the master of the no move move.  

He has also been my partner in crime when it comes to making a “break for it. ” 

Guess which one of us is Captain Kirk?  

Awakening to Reality is Hard Work.

According to The Buddha the 10 days of silence and training is the minimum requirement in order to even have the capacity to recognize the path of enlightenment.

I have not escaped yet.


Have you?


Is there a way out?

These posts are introducing the maps I have found so far. If you have found any I would like to hear about them.

I am excited about the next two posts.  

They will be the final two posts for a total of ten in The Yellow Brick Series.  

 This experience of writing them has been more like revealing than creating.  



The Yellow Brick Road; Brick (7); WHY?

My reasons for writing this book are fourfold:


plural noun: reasons
  1. a cause, explanation, or justification for an action or event.
    “the minister resigned for personal reasons”
    synonyms: cause, ground(s), basis, rationale; More

  2. the power of the mind to think, understand, and form judgments by a process of logic.
    “there is a close connection between reason and emotion”
    synonyms: rationality, logic, logical thought, reasoning, cognition;

    “postmodern voices railing against reason”
     3rd person present: reason
    think, understand, and form judgments by a process of logic.
    “humans do not reason entirely from facts”
    synonyms: think rationally, think logically, use one’s common sense, use one’s head/brain;

    “a young child is unable to reason”
    calculate, come to the conclusion, conclude, reckon, think, judge, deduce, infer,surmise;
    “Scott reasoned that Annabel might be ill”

(A)  Because I am convinced that human knowledge by others of what this book has to say is essential to human survival.

(B)  Because of my driving conviction that all of humanity is in peril of extinction if each one of us does not dare, now and henceforth, always to tell only the truth, and all the truth, and to do so promptly — right now.

(C)  Because I am convinced that humanity’s fitness for continuance in the cosmic scheme no longer depends on the validity of political, religious, economic, or social organizations, which altogether heretofore have been assumed to represent the many.

(D)  Because contrary to (C), I am convinced that human continuance now depends entirely upon:

(1)  The intuitive wisdom of each and every individual.

(2)  The individual’s comprehensive informedness.

(3)  The individual’s integrity of speaking and acting only on the         individual’s own within-self-intuited and reasoned initiative.

(4)  The individual’s joining action with others, as motivated only by the individually conceived consequences of doing so.

(5)  The individual’s never-joining action with others, as motivated only by crowd-engendered emotionalism, or by a sense of the crowd’s power to overwhelm, or in fear of holding to the course indicated by one’s own intellectual convictions.

My Aunt Therese died about 25 years ago.  She was young.

My father came from a family of 13 kids.

Therese was #13.

She had sickle cell anemia.

She was only 4 years older than me.



I was close to my father’s side of the family.

They had all immigrated out of British Guyana and were spread out over Canada and the U.S.

My Father



Diabetes involves the blood.  Sickle Cell Anemia messes the red blood cells up in a bad way.

It requires periodic and complete blood transfusions.

A “Crisis” happens when the sickle cells get “stuck.” Very painful.

Therese and I called ourselves the two sickies.  

We were very close because we both could relate to each other’s suffering with dis-ease.


I loved my Auntie Therese.

She had delivered a child through C-Section without pain block because it might send her into a “crisis” and jeopardize the child.

She would die a few years after.


If there is a God, a Creator and He/She is omnipotent, omniscience and omnipresent, WHY does decay and death occur, together with sorrow, lamentation, physical and mental suffering and tribulation?

You have to ask the question.

Some people have thought about it and decided it is all bullshit and there is no Creator, God, Light and it is pretty much a free for all so the object of the “game” must be to figure out how to make a few bucks and be happy.

I “get” that conclusion.  

It makes perfect sense.

All of the “Maps of the Territory” suggest we need to dig deeper.

This is a critical moment.  

Whatever your current belief structure surrounding Creation and the reasons or purpose for it….Can you suspend them for a moment?

If your “response” is “Yes,” “Absolutely,” “I am all in,” then you are “good to go.”   Let’s move on…..

If your “response” is “Maybe” or “I am not sure” or “I don’t know,”  

I understand. 

Doubt is both the enemy and the quickest path to enlightenment.  

It is normal to feel trepidation, hesitation and caution.

The Skeptic in you should be on guard.  

However, I would like to remind you that we are just inquiring, looking, checking things out.  

I am not a Guru looking for followers and validation of what I know.  

I am a tour guide.

But you must decide before moving on.  

Don’t believe anything.  

And don’t disbelieve anything.  

Just for awhile.  

If you want to go back to your currently structured belief structure after the inquiry then that’s cool.

The only thing that might get hurt is your EGO.  

Your SOUL is untouchable.

Here is a short clip from The Movie – Scent of a Woman.  One of my Top 10 of all time.  

Every time I watch this scene my heart explodes.  

You really have to see the movie to “get it.”  

It’s about being at a “Crossroads”  in one’s life.

An important decision needs to be made and Al Pacino is creating the “space” for another to “Do The Right Thing.”   

Are you you green?  

If so, you are good to go.

Are you still in yellow?  

If your “response” is “No,” “I Can’t,” “It’s not for me.”  

I understand.  There are many paths.  

The map is not the territory.  Neither is it a path or “The Path.”

It can only enlighten the path.

When you lock (attach) your mind to your beliefs and disbeliefs and convince yourself that this is faith you are deluding yourself.

That is based on science and not opinion.

Being in Red means you need to stop or are stopped; Not moving.

There is a time to stop. 

Remember the Zen Master?

We are traveling along a big circle…Important thing is to keep moving.

I’ve been ‘stuck’ since I got diabetes 40 years ago.  At least when it comes to that “line” of wellness, wholeness, integrity.

 Got to get back to HOMEostasis.

Can you suspend your beliefs and disbeliefs?  

YES or NO?

If No then I understand.  

The Yellow Brick Road Perspective is not for you.

You will just get annoyed, be skeptical, want to debate and possibly be disruptive.  

The reason is that you will be triggered (react) and want to defend your beliefs and disbeliefs.  

If you can move to green then you are good to go.

If you can get to yellow I will be willing to answer any questions you have in your process of getting to green.



But for God’s sake don’t stay in Red.




Kabbalah teaches that the physical universe is 1% of Reality and that The Spiritual realm is 99%.

Think about that.  

Even if you do all the right things, become a millionaire, donate money back to your college, marry your soul mate, stay happily married throughout your entire life, have one son and one daughter, win the lottery, stay in perfect health…..should I go on?

Even if you experience all those things you can only get to 100% of the 1% which is 1%.

The Real Game;  The Bigger Picture is in exploring the 99%.

To do this inquiry does not require belief, faith, worship or devotion.

If you think that the Physical Universe is all that there is you are on a path leading towards meaningless, at best.

The Yellow Brick Road is a meaning making map.